Friday, February 25, 2011

Thank God for Mother's Intuition

or I Cried All Night Thinking What Could Have Happened...

Last night as we were getting LB ready for bed I noticed he was chewing on something.  I assumed it was a pea or piece of turkey from dinner stuck in his teeth.  He did the same thing after he had hamburger for the first time and stopped as soon as we brushed his teeth.  But as I was changing his diaper he refused his binkie so I thought I ought to check.  I hooked a finger in his mouth and felt something hard.  He didn't let it go so I parked his butt on the changing table, grabbed his little neck to hold his head in place and hooked my finger in there again.  I finally got it out and to our shock and horror, it was a large, hard piece of plastic.  The dog must have pushed it under the gate because it was a piece of one of his chew toys.  At first I was just shocked but after we kissed him goodnight, laid him down in his crib, and went to our room I started bawling.  If he had gone to bed with that in his mouth I doubt he would have woken up.  All I can say is Thank God for that nagging voice in my mind when it comes to my family. 

God has spoken to my heart about many a thing in my life that just didn't seem "right".  I came home from work early one day to find my ex fiance cheating on me; I had dream after dream about a man I detested but after giving him a chance he turned out to be the love of my life; and on several occasions I have turned down a different street out of no where only to find out later that there was a deadly crash on the road I always take.  But this was by and far the hardest realization to deal with.  Just think how it would have been had I not listened to that still small voice.  It just breaks my heart to think about it.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Date Night

I had a date last night with two very charming men. Well, one isn't quite a man yet... but he's growing oh so fast! His little face is lengthening and every day he looks less and less like my little baby boy. He and his "dada" took me out for dinner last night. My husband and I had planned on having a "financial date night" once a week just to touch base, sit down together, and go through out monthly budget and see how we are doing. I am working on the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University class again and getting some great ideas on our money. DH stays home with LB so I can concentrate on class and get some away from baby time. I think they enjoy "boys night in" as well. So, we invented the financial date night so I could teach DH what I've learned that week and we can decide if and how to apply it to our lives. My plan was just to actually sit at the dining table once a week and go over it after dinner but DH had other plans.

At lunch he asked me if I had plans for dinner. I quickly tried to think of something but eventually told him the truth... "no, not really, why?" He asked if I would like to go out to eat for our first date night so I wouldn't have to worry about fixing dinner. We hadn't gone out to eat in several months so I said sure! When he got home that night I was in the closet trying on 20 different shirts. He watched me for a while until I turned around and said "I have a date tonight and I can't decide what to wear! What should I wear?" We just laughed because we both know he couldn't care less what I wear so long as we are together. I finally decided on jeans, a black sweater shirt with a wide neckline that can be folded over several different ways, some silver flower jewelry, and my new black soft leather heeled boots which I wore perfectly in the snow lol. I completely forgot my camera last night so I'll have to recreate my outfit and add pictures later. Maybe I can re-create LB's outfit too. He was so charming in his baby jeans, polo shirt and brown loafers (all found in thrift stores btw woot woot!)

It was a nice dinner overall. As long as LB had something in front of him to eat he was fine.  My dinner was AMAZING! It was chicken, smothered in a cream sauce, on top of potatoes au gratin, squash, carrots, broccoli stalks, and peppers, topped with mounds of crab meat, artichoke hearts and mushrooms. It was absolutely decadent! ...and LB wanted to eat it. He is just starting to show interest in what we are eating and he does this half moan- half cry when he wants whatever it is we are having. Of course we didn't think a smothered chicken with seafood on top was very healthy for a 14 month old so I just cut up some of my potatoes for him to munch on.

This restaurant has a dessert tray that they bring to the table and out of the 40 or so times we have eaten there, we've been shown the tray every time and ordered dessert only once so last night we ordered another dessert. DH choose the chocolate mousse and I am in love! I don't know that I've ever had chocolate mousse before but now I need to make some! Overall it was a lovely evening. Next time we are going to ask my friend to babysit though...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Too Busy

I read a good reminder on being too busy today...

"What is the biggest obstacle facing the family right now?

It is over-commitment; time pressure.

There is nothing that will destroy family life more insidiously than hectic schedules and busy lives, where spouses are too exhausted to communicate, too worn out to have sex, too fatigued to talk to the kids.

That frantic lifestyle is just as destructive as one involving outbroken sin.

If Satan can't make you sin, he'll make you busy, and that's just about the same thing."

~Dr. James Dobson

Are you too busy today?  God has really been putting on my heart to slow down.  I speed through projects and leave half completed ones in my wake.  I think LB needs structure but I overdo it and try to stick to our schedule so much that I either give it up completely or don't make room for spontaneity.   I am so busy trying to get everything done in a day and fit in some down time that at the end of the day I don't have time for my husband.  I need to schedule my time more efficiently and take on only what I can handle.

Happy Valentine's Day to Me!

Despite the fact that I have rarely been without a boyfriend my whole adolescent years and have been married now almost three years, I have never had a traditional Valentine's Day.  DH hates the holiday because of how commercialized it is.  He proposed on February 16th so we celebrate that day, but on Valentine's day I have to watch everyone with their flowers and candy and kisses and just sigh.  Sometimes it even makes me a bit bitter when it shouldn't at all.



This year I have decided to take the Mommyologist's advice and celebrate loving myself on Valentine's day.  I already gave DH his gift last night by filling up the tank in -30* weather so it'd be ready for work today and he wouldn't have to think about it.  Now it's time for me to get some lovin'.

Since I am having such a hard time with my weight loss and self esteem lately, I think this is the perfect opportunity to come up with some Why I Love Me statements.  So here we go...
  • My hair and nails grow fast and are thick.
  • I'm really pretty good at teaching myself HTML.
  • I'm a very loving person and I strive to help people.
  • I birthed and am raising, with DH of course, a happy, healthy little boy.
  • Although I get distracted often, I am eager to learn new things and work on projects.
  • I have high cheekbones which I love.
  • I am determined in anything I set my mind to.
  • According to DH, I'm a pretty good wife... despite my "need" to be better and perfect.
  • My nose scrunches when I really smile big.  LB has learned to do it too.
  • I know when to seek help and I work everyday to better myself.
  • I can usually keep calm during an argument to help both parties find a resolution.
  • Even when I'm depressed I can find goodness, beauty, and something to laugh at or be silly about.
Ha!  I decided not to number them because I was worried I couldn't think of at least 10 things, since 10 is a nice round number... but I thought of more!  Go me!  It's your turn...Go ahead, I want to know... why do you love you?
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